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Thursday, May 20, 2004
Let me make this straight I know I did something wrong. I know I made a mistake. And that's why I am doing what I am doing right now. I don't want you to leave my life. I want you back. It's as simple as it is. I am sorry if I bother you. But now, the thing is logically I didn't cheat on you. Yes, I can imagine how what I did hurt you, but don't be telling everybody that I cheated on you, coz I really didn't. I am willing to do whatever it takes, well, under a reasonable situation, to be back with you. And I know I made a huge mistake that screw my whole life up. I do know that. I haven't been happy after whatever happen. I know what I should do. I just beg you, please give me another chance. Wednesday, May 19, 2004
How messed up is that? This is really bothering me. I thought I don't mind Rebekah and Tejas talking and stuff like that. But I do, I really do. How can she go after my ex-bf? I mean, it's like she's been stealing my boys away. I trusted her, that's why I let her has tejas's phone number and his sn. And what happened after that, she went and stole him away. After JK, I have never trust her anymore, coz I know she doesn't have morals. She can just go kiss any guys that she likes, she has feelings for, no matter how her best friend like that guy or even love that guy. Fuck her!!! Damn it. She's an evil bitch!!! Tuesday, May 18, 2004
What if ... Haven't write here for a while. Well, I am home now. Got this e-mail from Marcus saying that he wanna come see me. And that he miss me very very much and that he loves me. It's flattering, but I really wonder if that's really how he feels. I still think I don't know him that well. He has a lot of different masks. He told people different things. I wanna to trust him, but I don't know if I should, coz if I do, and if he was just joking, I will get hurt and I do not plan to get hurt again, not this soon. I don't want any scars on my heart no more. It's already broken into pieces. I want it to heal. I miss Tejas too. But there's nothing that I can really do. But anyways, Marcus, I really like him, but I am not sure if I should like him. And maybe I should just see how this three months are gonna go and we'll see how much he likes me. gotta go Friday, May 14, 2004
With you Ha, Ha, ahhh, Ha, Ha, ahhh The real me is a southern girl with her Levis on and an open heart Wish I could save the world, like I was super girl The real me is to laugh all night lying in the grass just talking about love But lately I've been jaded life got so complicated I start thinking about it, I almost forgot what it was like,\ to know what it feels like, With you I can let my hair down I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground With nothing but a T-shirt on I never felt so beautiful Baby as I do now Now that I'm with you With you (x3) Ha, Ha, ahh Now that I'm with you You speak and it's like a song And just like that all my walls come down It's like a private joke just meant for us to know I relate to you naturally Everybody else just fades away Sometimes it's hard to breathe Just knowing you found me Cause I start thinking about it, I almost forgot what it was like to know what love feels like, Cause with you I can let my hair down I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground With nothing but a T-shirt on I never felt so beautiful Baby as I do now Now that I'm with you With you (x3) Ha, Ha, ahhh Come and take me Love you save me Like nobody else Now I can be myself With you, I can let my hair down I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground With nothing but a T-shirt on I never felt so beautiful Baby as I do now (Baby as I do now) Now that I'm with you now that I¡¦m with you I can let my hair down I can say anything crazy I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground With nothing but a T-shirt on I never felt so beautiful Baby as I do now Now that I'm with you Take my breath away Watching every motion In the foolish lover's game On this endless ocean Finally lovers know no shame Turning and returning To some secret place inside Watching in slow motion As you turn around and say, my love Take my breath away Take my breath away Watching I keep waiting Still anticipating love Never hesitating To become the fated ones, oh yeah Turning and returning To some secret place inside Watching in slow motion As you turn around and say, my love Take my breath away Take my breath away, oh woah yeah Through the hourglass I saw you In time you slipped away When the mirror crashed I called you And turned to hear you say If only for today I am unafraid Take my breath away, oh oh yeah You take my breath away, oh oh (Take my breath away) You take my breath You take my breath You take my breath away (Take my breath away) You take my breath away You take my breath away You take my breath away Don't wanna miss a thing I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleeping While you're far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Where every moment spent with you Is a moment I treasure I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what your dreaming Wondering if it's me your seeing And then I kiss your eyes, and thank God we're together I just wanna stay with you In this moment forever I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing I don't wanna miss one smile I don't wanna miss one kiss Well, I just wanna be with you, right here with you Just like this I just wanna hold you close Feel your heart so close to mine And just stay here in this moment For all the rest of time I don't wanna close my eyes I don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream will never do I'd still miss you And I don't wanna miss a thing Horoscope for the Day Welcome to your own 5-Day, Victoria. The vibration of this number is lighthearted and fun loving, just as you are. You're sure to favor social activities, and the more the merrier. If there's something happening in the workplace or community that brings people together, this is the ideal day to get involved. Don't hold back from enjoying yourself once all of the work you have to do is taken care of, Five. This way, you won't have to worry about things you have to catch up on. The planetary energies highlight your creativity, Victoria. Make the most of this auspicious opportunity to do some painting or some writing. You have much talent, and need only use it on a regular basis in order to enhance it. Today you may discover not only how talented you are, but also how much you enjoy the process of creating. Give yourself the gift of time, and the focus necessary in order to use your abilities to their full potential You've been paying a lot of attention to friends and family lately; why not do something strictly for yourself? You totally deserve it, and other people can take care of themselves for a day You've still got bundles of positive feelings keeping you aloft, and even if your sweetie is still stuck on the ground you can feel the good vibes flowing between you The good vibes just keep on coming. It's a great night for a date and you're almost guaranteed to resonate with the person you're with The messenger becomes the message. You're happy to take responsibility for something when you believe in it. It's actually fun to fill the starring role in your own visions for a change. You have a better sense of what you can easily do and what still needs work. Think and speak at the same time; these parallel tracks are more similar than you realize. People are willing to believe your promises, especially if you're not a public figure in a dubious profession. You're confident that you can deliver. More is better when you're exceeding expectations Thursday, May 13, 2004
Horosocpe for the Day Information received through the Internet, through TV and video, or perhaps through a group you're affiliated with could shed new light on your spiritual quest, Victoria. A charismatic new friend might appear on the scene, offering new ideas for you to consider. You might find yourself in constant touch with people from all walks of life, all over the world who might join with you in your search. Absorb it all! It's going to make a big difference to you. Welcome to a 4-Day, Victoria. Practicality, hard work, commitment, and routine will feel unusually comfortable for you today. A full day will likely do you a world of good, Five, where you're able to resist your social inclinations and fun seeking. Make a list of all of the mundane, practical things that need to get done, like housework or shopping. If it's a workday, consider things like filing or working on a project. You'll find it wonderfully easy to focus on such activities. Make the most of it, and enjoy a productive day. Treat yourself like royalty! Your energy can't be topped, and you might as well live it up and enjoy what you've got while it lasts. Share the wealth of good energy with friends, too You're on top of the world, but your sweetheart might not be up there with you. Be gracious, but make sure you get the royal treatment you know you deserve You've got tons of good energy, so treat yourself to something nice and maybe make a spur-of-the-moment decision to surprise that special someone with a gift Who needs to work? You just want to play, and you're not playing alone. Your friends are your best resource for fun and inspiration, reflecting your good energy back at you like a shiny mirror. The stars demand that you do something completely original. The clues are everywhere, just waiting for you to slap them together into a shape that's yours alone. Riff inventively against the echo of something that went before. Rewrite an old myth to fit a modern context. It's just one more proof that you've been here before and your past lives have all been leading up to this If I ain't got you Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things define what's within And I've been there before But that life's a bore So full of the superficial Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you Some people search for a fountain That promises forever young Some people need three dozen roses And that's the only way to prove you love them Hand me the world on a silver platter And what good would it be? With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you, you, you Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you If I ain't got you with me baby Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing If I ain't got you with me baby Confessions [Usher talking on phone] Hello? Yo I'm in the booth I'mma call you right back Nah I just gotta put this one part down I'mma call you back I'm at the studio man what-- Man quit playin' with me man No for real don't play like that Are you--are you serious? How you know? Put that on everything. Damn I'mma call u back I'mma call u back... [Intro] Everytime I was in L.A. I was with my ex-girlfriend Everytime you called I told you, "Baby I'm workin." (No!) I was out doin my dirt (Oh!) Wasn't thinkin' 'bout you gettin' hurt (I) was hand in hand in the Beverly Center like man Not givin' a damn who sees me So gone (I know) So wrong (Just listen) Thinkin' I got it and left you sittin' at home Thinkin' about me Bein' a good girl that you are But you prolly believe you got a good man I mean I would never do the things I'mma 'bout to tell you I've done Brace yourself It ain't good But it would be even worse if you heard this from somebody else (oh no) [Usher speaking] I know you hate me I know I hurt you But there's more listen...
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